You know I got into a lot of details at that point and I'm not really gonna go into any further details. -- deeply remorseful for what happened I wish that I had the ability to go back. Change things and do things a lot differently but unfortunately I can't do that. -- I can do is move on. You know try to do everything in my power to turn back people's trust. And respect and support. I don't anticipate you know -- back everybody's support but I certainly intended everything in my power to do that -- subtract. You -- to see the little leaguers who really worship the ground that you want them. You know I've always been incredibly appreciative of everybody's support. I made a mistake a huge mistake mistake that it's obviously been extremely difficult to deal with and we'll continue to be difficult to deal with. You know and all I can say is that in making mistakes as I've stated previously we all deal with adversity we all do -- challenges in life. Many challenge you face you have an opportunity to view either as an obstacle. More as an opportunity to grow from to learn from to help other people avoid making that same mistake and that's what I had to do. In your opinion was the -- in using -- TVs or lying about it after the fact. You know as I stated I think the goal for me -- has been able to move forward not really gonna get into any specifics. About what happened other than saying that I'm extremely remorseful. I wish that I could go back and change things but I don't have that opportunity to do that so. One's gonna do everything in my power to move forward have you apologize to -- -- -- or made any payments to. I have not made any payments -- -- I've had some really productive and positive conversations with them. Found the forensic fairly it was actually gracious and kind enough to have -- -- -- sailor -- over the house for dinner last night. And we had some really good conversation. We've made amends -- I think we're both excited to -- them forward. And put this behind affordable words directly to Bud Selig. I had did I -- but a letter but rather than now and -- getting to me. You know and that she got away that he be positive but what possessed you to go from Maryville -- and they all those things that. Why so much and then both Dillon and into the -- -- what possessed -- to -- I was I'm not really again negative to me specifics I wish that I hadn't done the press conference. It was a big mistake I deeply regret having done it and a lot of things that I said that day. But again all I can do is move forward and in an effort to do that I'm not gonna get -- -- -- -- specifics I really don't think that. It does anything too positive -- productive for me for the team. For the game of baseball or anybody else and in and efforts in Florida not been discussed -- -- -- military rulers -- huge victory she from the fans on opening day. You know everywhere I've been people have been incredibly supportive and I'm extremely appreciative of that. I don't really know what to expect. But again every every everybody has been extremely supportive -- my -- -- as well as well not. Why if you read along the boards. I've actually been in town a few times I don't do that Twitter FaceBook and that's a -- everybody that I'm here. I think today was -- kind of an opportunity that obviously we understood there -- some media here. -- one of the opportunity to speak to you guys -- wasn't about waiting or anything like that like I said I've been here a few times I think this is the first time that everybody's in order. -- -- understand that but when when the suspension came down other players will -- news conferences took office routine at all at any answer for him. Why did it take this long -- you can afford. You know I think because it was an ongoing investigation I wasn't really allowed to say very much at that time. And you know basically based on what -- have learned from -- midget baseball players association it wasn't in anybody's best interest for me to make any statements about. Doing what my ground a lot of this to anything positive -- there's I think there's something positive that can come from everything. I think you know at all times I was tried to -- -- good and everything. Things aren't always good but I just to be getting everything in its an opportunity for -- to use my experience -- -- -- and I've -- to help other people avoid making the same mistakes I think. My certainly have plans that to do everything in my power. It took to turn this -- bad situation into a good thing into a positive in to help other people. Along the way avoid making -- -- you know you have the other -- -- the all star team again even if you played an all star level. I really haven't thought about that kind of stuff -- -- my -- is always to go and be the best player that I can be. I'm not motivated by individual accolades. My certainly intends it to go out there obviously where I've been hopefully I continue to get better. -- and if that opportunity presents itself could be very. But I guess my whole focus is just on you know do everything I can -- come back next year in and did the great player is right all the thing I would put you in the hall of -- out of the question for you I haven't even thought that far ahead and I think it's almost disrespectful to even discuss the hall of -- I want to play in the -- or less than seven years. You know at some point -- -- -- have that conversation but I don't think there's reason to have that decision. And what was the injury and he's gone through juniors -- -- that -- I get I'm not get -- get into specifics and continue to go backward moving forward and not gonna. Into a dismissive so I don't think -- blew everybody would talk about. And how exactly would happen yeah I mean I completely understand respect where you guys are coming from the fact that a part of your job is fast those questions. But I hope that you guys can also understand and respect the fact that in an effort to move forward come on does not gonna continue to discuss that's. You make a response from. But players still have a few players offer. You know I actually and I haven't really read paid attention or watched. Anything. But I understand people being disappointed people being upset people reacting emotionally I don't fault anybody for being upset. And again I don't know specifically. -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- I'm not gonna get into our specific relationship than to say that you know -- been a -- friend of mine for a long times. Great person I hope that's he gets back on the field some of the locals definitely -- -- the same -- -- you -- pretty -- Yeah yeah I think I'll be better but should be better. Bryan what about -- on 2011 NL MVP award. You think there's this room Rose revelation invalidate their awards. You know like a set on this continuing to move forward I think that's all I can do I'm not gonna go back and continue to discuss the things that happened in the past. And I feel like in an effort to do I don't know and it's just you know the Brewers gave you a huge contract based in part -- on and you being the face of the franchise. That image has been tarnished somewhat. Are you willing to reopen your contract and renegotiate and a lower -- that you value as opposed to -- of the -- has been diminished. You know the Brewers have been incredibly supportive the entire organization. My teammates everybody's been incredibly supportive. I can't think mark that's enough do enough to support I fully intend to do everything in my power to be the best player and person that I can be moving forward. Tell you want to take -- anybody -- baseball's. Drug testing policy SP -- do you still feel that we now. I guess that I I greatly regret having done that press conference at all men in my opinion on a lot of those things that's -- things. -- is that your biggest regret your dessert what do you regret the most. You know obviously -- the whole thing is -- -- -- it was a huge mistake I wish that I hadn't done that I wish I could go back and do a lot of things different I don't think I can specifically. Pinpoint one thing that I regret more than anything else irrelevant -- second go back and change it but. Like a second usually the players association has to be -- -- as much as you like. -- the players association was definitely very supportive. Brian what he did this on your position that it. I don't think about those things I really don't I'm getting married here really soon my focus is on that and doing everything I can. On to come back next year be the best player and if you don't care about what people. I was -- people think but I only have control over so many things that I focus on the things that I can control. And that's continuing to try to be the best person I can be best player I can be on the for myself in the best position to come back next here have a very very would you say this about. The possibility that teams are interested in trading for you and Doug Melvin said the team isn't planning on trading you. Would you welcome a fresh start somewhere else or do you want to play here. I absolutely want to stay here you know I think I'm and a sponsor commitment because the city's been amazing to me the fans have been amazing to me. On the organization's been incredibly supportive of me and I fully intend to stay here. You know obviously it's it's flattering that people would be interested actually had lunch with Doug Melvin Raanan markets -- -- last week -- -- a lot. And I don't think there's any truth those rumors but you know my goal and my intention certainly -- there. What would you -- Robin Young if you encountered him. Tom Robin and I've had a great relationship I enjoy our conversations with -- and I don't think that our relationship with him. We're really ecology on him about the image for the team after all he's done for the organization. Yeah I look forward to seeing him I'll definitely seeing spring training I think he's out on the Arizona quite off that I look forward to having an opportunity ultimately -- -- -- -- And how hard was that. It was extremely difficult extremely challenging and it wasn't something that I enjoy doing anyway. I didn't watch many games. I think I I kind of paid attention to what was going on but aside from that I really look pretty. You're pleased with the TV so people. I think it'll be great I've been back here couple times after the suspension everybody was incredibly supportive. I don't anticipate any issues it. You can you're beginning how style reactions. In baseball and -- you wouldn't do that a couple of years ago do you expect it to be. Any worse now and especially here in Milwaukee would -- You know I don't think about things like that I don't really have any expectations. I have dealt with that in the past and I'll just -- the best I -- to continued to. Don't be the best player that I can be I think we all deal with adversity real deal with distractions there's always something going on in my focus. Movie and get the best player and tell us tomorrow what do -- dinner we I'm not gonna really get into too many details -- -- say that. There was an incredible experience extremely gracious and kind of them. There really special people and I appreciate -- giving me the opportunity. To go to their house and and to have a conversation there's in this -- good deal himself not the fun yes. Did it make you feel any -- -- witches and yeah I mean I wish that I could change that I wish I never had had said anything about him I wish I knew more. At the time that I had said what I said. But he was really special person's family it's really a special group of people. I'm much easier fans visiting kids and looked up. There's so many years when you -- I mean I've always been incredibly. Appreciative of everybody's support. Routes and made a mistake -- huge mistake. And that all like intend to do is is try to you know find some positives to come from a difficult situation what do you think -- when he -- -- Restaurant's closing in your relationship with Aaron Rodgers and -- clothing and new restaurant closes the opening -- film -- back. Yeah they're obviously there's a lot of follow -- from everything that I've been there really good relationship with the search group with Omar Mikey. They're great guys are our relationship won't be changed but obviously in light of everything that occurred on their samples. -- -- city kids what do you -- to kids -- see. That the possibility. Of cheating to get ahead. I mean I hope that people could recognize what I've been through and not want to go through that's inexperienced. It's been a -- been really difficult it's been really challenging. I would never. You know -- the situation upon anybody and I hope that people can view my situation as as you know learning experiences that -- try to avoid. If you post a really good numbers this year like you did a couple years ago when he won the MVP you know there's going to be a lot of people that are saying. He's still he -- what do you say those people who doubt your ability as a baseball player and think it was chemically. You know again I focus on the things that I can control. I'm gonna continue to try to be the best person I could be best player I can be. -- fully intend to be at least as good as I've been to this point in my career hopefully I continue to get better. But I only focus on the things that I can control I can't control what people say or think. This is my fault that they can force -- -- for my actions -- put myself in this position. And people have the opportunity say whatever they want but all this focus on. On the things I can control how stressful is this through it -- -- you know like I said earlier I have been incredibly appreciative of everybody's bored fans have been unbelievably supportive of me. Fully intend to do everything in my power to try to earn back their their trust their respect their support. I don't think I learned back that from every fan but I fully intend to try -- Russell has -- been on your relationship with your fiance. I think my -- -- of all my friends and family have actually gotten stronger. I don't think that it's been overly stressful dealing with the wedding has been far more stressful than this situation. So we're doing well thank you when he is -- soon -- That's it thanks guys and you're here. It's great you know it's obviously harder task force does some amazing things in the state and -- happy to be able to do my small part tribute. It's an incredible time for all of us to be thankful and appreciative of everything we have as Thanksgiving approaches so happy to beat him.